A Little Broken

Sometimes the pain I still feel
gets to me

Somedays I hide it better
than other days

Sometimes the sorrow consumes me
a little too easily

But I have hope that I can move on
from these shackles suffocating my heart

And one day, I'll be flying
in the presence of the stars
the radiance of their light
will be so contagious
I'll be shining, brighter than the sun, no doubt

I just need to shake this sadness
I think I need to take it day by day

Maybe I should really just let him completely out of my life
More and more that seems like the only option

And it just makes me cry.

Oh Dear God!

There's going to be a Flavor of Love 3???? Kill me now!

I feel like starting a petition to STOP THIS RIDICULOUS SHOW.

Hey VH1...whennnnnnnnn are you going to play music again??? Same goes for you MTV. Sometimes, I just can't believe the world we live in...

Boiling Point (in a good way, though)

There's definitely a heeeeeeat waaaaaaave going through San Diego right now. Darn Arizona for sharing their winds with us!!!

But the heat and the warmth are good--to cleanse me of last year and all of its coldness. My heart was beginning to turn into ice, but it's warming up now. I'm in the process of a defrost...

I am once again becoming a believer in the beauty and truth and radiance that surrounds my world (and your world too). And when you take that attitude, the flowers seem a little brighter, the water a little fresher and the grass a little greener (and on your side, not the other side).

Excuse while I proceed to go dance in the sun (but only for awhile, I don't want to get too sweaty, you know).

Natural Born Players

I started my first day at the Children's Center. I'm not a substitute, I actually have a position there now.

It's funny working with children and seeing their little personalities at such a young age...thus imagining what they will be like as adults. The boys are the best to watch--there are the clingy ones, the lovers, etc. One little boy with beautiful green/gold eyes and amazingly long eyelashes hung out with me today. To top it off he was a golden tan little mexican boy named Juanito. I WANT MULTICULTURAL CHILDREN!!!!!!!!!!!

What? They're adorable!

In other news, one of my very best friends, Jaclyn, is moving to Tennesse. She's gonna be too far away...ahhhhh! But I'm not too sad about it, cause I know that she will be a friend that will always be in my life. We're good at keeping in touch :) We're also really good at being big weirdos. haha, eh...that's life.

A Little Sunshine...

I had some Pink Panty Droppers last night at my friend's birthday party. Ohhhhh vodka, you are a strong little devil, especially for a girl that doesn't drink much. However, I ended taking care of my friend last night since her drink of choice was whiskey. Bad choice.

I still have multiple things to buy/fix/take care of in my new aparetment. I have a lamp, but I need a lightbulb for it...I have a shower curtain, but no shower curtain rod...I have dishsoap, but I seemed to have misplaced my sponge. Life is funny in that way, we're always looking for the one piece to complete the whole.

I applied to the Children's Center on my campus...I guess my job of choice has been with children lately. They told me I could start as a "floater," or substitute, since I don't have loads of experience. I'm excited to work there, though, because a) I like kids and b) The job is directly on campus. Location!!

Wow...I wrote a lot this week, more than I anticipated. Probably because both my roomates are gone and with solitude comes creativity. It's not a bad kind of solitude, either. Hope all your weekends are full of sunshine...

P.S. that reminds me...I FINALLY watched Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. Goooooood movie. And trippy to boot. Aw, I love when movies end up being fantastic!

Rock your heart out.

I freakin' love this song. So I had to post it. Nuff said.

Seriously, now?

About the last post before this...the son actually called. You have to be kidding me!!!!!

hahahahaha!

Call Girl

No, I'm not becoming one. But just listen to my story...

I went to jury duty today, right? I didn't even get called (whew!); however, an interesting event did occur. I started to talking to an older man next to me and noticed that he had an accent. So my inquisitive side urged me to ask, "Where are you from?"

Man: Turkey.

Me: Ohhhhh, my mom is from Turkey too!!

So of course for the next 30 minutes we talked about Turkey (gosh I love that place). Then, this man brought up his son.

Man: You know, my son would like you...a lot. He's a good looking boy. Can I have your number so my son can call you?

Me: Excuse me?

Well...I couldn't say no. I just find it funny that fathers have the nerve to pimp out their sons to random girls in the jury duty lounge.

I'm still laughing over this. I'll laugh even more if he calls.

Hungry like the wolf.

Maybe one day I'll have my life together? I feel that life just gets more confusing as you get older. Maybe it's just your 20's that are horribly confusing. Nah, I think it's just life.

I wish I knew how to be less stressed over certain issues--money, the future, feelings of inadequacy.

I think I should take up drawing and painting again...when I mean again, I mean that I haven't done those things since I lived for recess and handball was my sport of choice.

I just want things to get better. Maybe I'll never be satisfied.

Rabbit Foot...anyone?

So my week has not been the greatest. A list of things:

• I got a parking ticket for not turning my wheels against the curb on a hill. Now, yes...I remember learning that tidbit about driving a LONG time ago...try when I was 16. But since then, I have forgotten. So I got a $47.00 ticket. A warning would have been nice, mr. asshole officer.
• I'm running extremely low on money. And money really stresses me out. I need to not let it though, but how does one go about doing that?
• To go along with the second point, I need another job, which I'm going out today to find. I'm going to try a cafe close to school.

Just one more yearrrrrrrrrr of this and I'll graduate. Then I'll kick butt in my career. I'm just a little stressed now but I know I will pull through. I always do. And I've got the dreamer's disease. That's not a bad thing in my book.

Olly Olly Oxen Freeze!

I'm moved in. I feel better. Now I just gotta put things away. ha.

Alllllllllllright Miss Rubber Soul, I'll follow the sun with you and play your little game of tag.

Each player lists 8 facts/habits about themselves. The rules of the game are posted at the beginning before those facts/habits are listed. At the end of the post, the player then tags 8 people and posts their names, then goes to their blogs and leaves them a comment, letting them know that they have been tagged and asking them to read your blog," and so on and so on and so on.

1. I am a huge HUGE fan of South Park. It's crude and dirty and ridculous...and absolutely brilliant.

2. When I was 2 years old, I would pass up ice cream for a bowl of clam chowder.

3. I believe the color purple is the best color in the whole world and may have healing powers--yeah, it's that beautiful.

4. I listen to Marvin Gaye after a hard/stressful day.

5. I don't have the heart to eat lobsters.

6. Chocolate is ALWAYS the right answer in my book.

7. I despise tailgaters. Those fools should just go around.

8. I think "Rainbow Connection" is honestly a pretty song, sung by no other than Kermt Theeee Frog.

Ok, I tag: Anthony, Thomas, Ashley...well, I only have three to tag. So have fun, if you want :)