Breaking Out of the Lackluster

"Don't give in to discouragement. If you are discouraged it is a sign of pride because it shows you trust in your own powers. Never bother about people's opinions. Be obedient to truth. For with humble obedience, you will never be disturbed."

--Mother Theresa

Since I believe in a God, I surely agree with this statement.

I'm trying to look at the bright side of life, although I've been feeling a bit downcast and lackluster. I'm not sure as to why, except that I've been a bit bored. This can be changed. I can get a new job, gain new activities, pray more, and get myself out of this unusual hole. It's the weirdest kind of sadness--the kind that comes from nowhere. It's different when you are feeling sad from a broken heart or a death. In those situations you have something to blame.

In this situation, I'm feeling sad for no apparent reason. ?!?! Sad might be the wrong word...I'm just not...as energetic and full of life as usual.

Today was a good day though. I messed around with a new camera that my dad got me for my birthday (coming up soon). I had lunch with a good friend. I talked, I laughed, I had some delicious coffee.

I need to remember to surround myself with community.

And with God. A verse from Psalm 139 (one of my FAVORITE Psalms EVER):

"Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting."

I don't want anyone to worry at all by reading this post. I am not depressed or lifeless. I'm just, in the middle somewhere. I'm recognizing that and bringing it to light, because when you are feeling down, isn't it good to talk about it?

Random pictures:

Another sunflower picture. Can't help but smile when I see a sunflower :D

A note from one first-grade boy at my job. Although it's a black heart (how emo!), it's adorable.

That delicious coffee I had today. Mmmm...a Cafe Viennese.

Up on the list for this week: Disneyland on Wed (for my bday, YAY), Alice and Wonderland (da movie!) on Saturday, followed by a joint birthday party with my friend Colleen. Yep, I sure do like to celebrate my birth! I think this will be a good week.