I take part of that last post back...kind of.
The guy I mentioned, who will go by Mr. Hot Chocolate (haha...yes, he's african american), has changed his tune today. He's admitting that he indeed has feelings for me...and being incredibly persistent about it. Sooooo...I'm not gonna take his word for it, I'll let him show me.
If his actions show that he cares enough, then we'll see where this may go.
I'm learning that sometimes you just gotta give second chances (if it feels right in ya soul).
You know what I'm proud of myself for? Not compromising, standing up for what I believe in and being genuine.
That is the best I can do in my life and with my heart.
P.S. I probably shouldn't post about every little personal twist and turn, eh...but whatever. Might as well be open with my emotions. It feels good to let it out.
I love that you have a tag called "sticking up for me". It seems like that's all I've been trying to do all week!
ReplyDelete"You know what I'm proud of myself for? Not compromising, standing up for what I believe in and being genuine. That is the best I can do in my life and with my heart."
Those are words to live by, and you put it perfectly. Way to go for staying true to yourself, and realising your worth :)
I hope this is the beginning of something amazing!
Wow, I missed a lot. First of all, good job on not compromising, either on the religion or the feelings. I bet the feelings were harder, right? While I'm not religious I know that there are certain beliefs and points of view that I couldn't accept a partner not having, and that would be a deal breaker for sure. It's always harder when it comes to not compromising on feelings and wanting people to be properly into us. I think these days we're partly taught to believe in true love and not settle for less, and partly to go with the flow, not expect too much to soon, and compromise. Massive head spin. Glad to see Mr. Hot Chocolate is coming round.
ReplyDeleteI just saw the post about your father. I'm so terribly sorry and I hope the family is hanging in there, and you have my sincere thoughts and all my best wishes.xox
actions mean a lot!! words can be just empty letters...
ReplyDeleteActions are the best way to show feelings!!
and this is your lovely space you should write what ever you feel like!! :)
We have to catch up again properly, eh? I want to know all about this situation ;)
ReplyDeleteJax x
hey drama central! Just kidding. I am proud of you before a strong enough person to kick him to the curb if he's not treating you right! I see way too many girls settling for good enough. I guess there is a fine line between not getting what you want but wanting to see where it goes because of how YOU feel. I think you're being smart though!!
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ReplyDeleteOkay, it sounded contradictory to say that you give someone a second chance, and then say that you are uncompromising, but I think you said it in the beginning:"I'll let him show me". That'll do it. I just got caught up in the rhetoric.
ReplyDeleteGood to give second chances. You must teach me how to do that.
haha. Uncompromising on my beliefs, but willing to give him a second chance to see if he will match up with me.
ReplyDeleteWe'll see.
I used to be absolutely against second chances...but now I believe that some deserve it :)
ReplyDeletehope mr. hot choco do well ;)