I'm blushing!

I have a bit of a problem; it comes with being shy. I get emabarrased easily. For many of you this is not a problem, but for me it happens all the time. And the new red-pinkish color in my cheeks is not the only thing that comes from being embarrased for me. My negative thoughts do too...and I need to stop that. I get embarrased, I linger on the situation and then rememeber the worst part of the whole ordeal. Why the heck do I do that? I need to learn how to move on form situations.
The speaker from last night made a good point. He said, "negativity doesn't pull you through." So, in case any of you were wondering, that's what I gave up for lent: negativity. Hopefully I can train myslef to give it up after lent too.

However, there was a time in my life where I never took chances and therefore never got embarrased. So this is a new experience for me...I'm proud that I've become more confident to approach that waiter that I think is cute and tell him that (and ask for his picture, I actually did that, it was a big step for me) or to just act dorky in general--because that's the real me. I'll always be a little bit of a nerd, so I might as well face it. At least (and I'm thinking positively) I'm blushing because I'm actually living life. I'm making mistakes and becoming embarrased, but at least I'm living my life to the fullest.

1 comment:

  1. Fuck Ya Roomate, well take you to see some more cute boys and eventually you wont be embarassed