I've been back in San Diego a few days and have had the chance to catch up to this time zone and my thoughts. Going to the UK was sooooooo good for my soul. I feel refreshed and less lost. I feel like I have a semi-plan. I feel like I can rest a little easy.
Before leaving, I had this fantasy of London in my mind. It's what we do with memories: whilst I had remembered the bad things about London, the good things were dominating my every thought. There was nothing anyone could say, any therapy session could bring forward, or that I could even tell myself to calm my lusting over London. I had to go back. I had to experience the actual place again.
London is and always will be a fantastic, cultured, and gorgeous city. It's one of my cities. But it's not the only city I can live in. By the end of my trip, I resolved that while I love London dearly, I do not have to move so many miles away from San Diego to be happy. There are comparable places to London here in the U.S., places I intend to look into. Places I'd like to check out and apply to (making big plans around here). And while I would move back to London for a good job opportunity, it's not my main target. It's a love, but not my only love.
To finally make a decision on London and not be so confused, wishy-washy, and full of doubt is...REJUVENATING. I feel like new!
Now, get ready for an onslaught of travel posts and shameless bragging over the very inspiring, emotional, beautiful trip I just had. Dare I say I deserved it? Yes, I think going to London was simply divine.
Ooh I can't wait for your travel posts! I am absolutely obsessed with Charles Dickens so am so keen to go to London at the moment, I will just have to live vicariously through you for now :)
ReplyDeleteOh hey! You're blogging again :) Yes, travel posts are on the way...
DeleteThis is so nice to read. Having lived in the UK most of my adult life I can honestly say that whilst it is all things fantastic it has many many warts. Charles Dickes for example is so minimal in any mind, unless you are an American tourist that its almost irrelevant. Its a tough place to live.
ReplyDeleteGood luck in your plans, plans are good!
Yes, it will always be dear to my heart, but I see the realism of it too. If it was a tad closer to California, though, I think I'd have to be in London a bit longer.
DeleteWow, I've missed a lot! What can I say? Life. Some bad things, some good things. Career change, etc. Anyway I saw your complete jealousy-inducing photos from Scotland. And I'm so very happy to read this post! :-)
ReplyDeleteThat's such a freeing feeling to have. Glad this trip was able to settle your mind and make you look forward to new things and new experiences
ReplyDeleteI've been waiting to hear about your trip! Glad it went well and that you feel rejuvenated. Curious to see where you'll end up though (::cough::, NY, ::cough::) ;)
ReplyDeleteI won't rule it out! I think I'll be going for anywhere that can give me a job relating to my career. For my field, the east coast looks more promising! We will see :)
DeleteOf course you deserve it. <3
ReplyDeleteThis blog is looking cleaner and more refined the longer I take to get back to Blogland. I hope you are well.
ReplyDeleteYes, I am blogging again. Come check me out, homey, when you are free.
Looking forward to hearing more about your big changes in life. You deserve it. It's great to go back to a familiar place, one you might even call "home", and then return home and feel ready to conquer new life plans. You can do it, and you will do it all beautifully. I can tell.
ReplyDeleteWhy do you think London is such a natural fit for you but Turkey was not? You were quite enchanted with Turkey at one point but that seemed to end abruptly. Strictly and genuinely curious. Awesome that you've found a second home. Say hi to John Cleese for me sometime!
ReplyDeleteOh, I am still enchanted with Turkey and always will be. However, when I went to try and live there, I didn't have a decent plan in place (school, job, routine of some sort). I really think that makes all the difference when moving to a new country. Beyond that, though, Turkey was going (and is still going) through political issues, and that also bothered me. It's sad to see a country that was a shining star in the middle east for a move toward democracy start to regress a little. I will always visit Turkey, but I'm not sure I will ever go to live again, unless the political climate changes.
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