I do NOT ♥ work.

Ahhhh! I'm tired of working and not being paid enough. It's driving me insane!

I'm jealous of my roomates! Their parents pay for everything. That would be sooooooo freakin' nice. And to have all that extra time to study--wait, who am I kidding? I wouldn't study over the weekend. But just to have that extra time to relax....that would be fan-tab-u-lous.

I know this post is a complaint, but I feel like complaining.

It's not even that my job is hard at all, it just takes up way too much time. I love the people that I work with, but is it worth the sacrifice of my whole weekend? Maybe I should try to find a new job. I don't know. I don't want to think about it.

I just want to take a bath. And maybe a shot of rum? heh heh...maybe not a good idea to drink when your upset. That could lead to bad things....

This transitional period between college and and graduation and getting a "real job" is the biggest pain in the ass. I want to leave this place, but yet I'm scared to leave. I want to do more, make more and be more, but I also want to be lazy and remain a kid.

You just can't have both. Grrrrrrrrr...

That's the way, uh-huh, uh-huh, I like it!

Wow.

What a great date! It's now 1:42 am and the date started at 8:00 pm, essentially (I went to his bible study at 7:00pm).

And he wore a sweater for me!

He's fabulous, really. Smart, caring, cute, latin (hehe), and funny. And he says he loves to dance. Duh! So do I. Do you not see my picture? I told you kids I was a dancing machine. Come on now.

We talked for a long, long time...really I enjoy his company in general. There was no kiss, which is good cause I like to move super slowly anyway. I'm just excited about getting to know him. The most attractive thing about him by far: his intelligence. I loooooooove it.

Oh, latin lover!

Only 60% insane, so far.

Oh My Goodness...my date is tonight.

I'm excited!

Oh, and I am nervous, don't get me wrong, cause it's me. Analyzing too much=thinking about every possible outcome=being a little nervous. But I'm more excited than anything. I'm really excited, actually. And now I'm gonna have all this excited energy built up....all until 7:00 pm tonight. Then I'm just gonna release it. I'm gonna be bouncing off the walls, now, seriously.

This is still funny to me. I'm just not the girl that dates that much. I'm the girl who is actually quite content with being single. Maybe that's why I don't let a lot of relationships in when the chance comes up. Why would I ruin my contentment?

There I go analyzing again. I'm not my own therapist, so I should stop.

About tonight...I'll tell you all how it goes later. Oh yes, there will be a post. Whether it's good or bad, well...we will see.

All I know--I like this frantic/excited feeling. Every once and awhile it's fun to lose your head.

Late Night Dreaming

Sometimes I really adore this time of night. The dreamer in me comes out to dance in the mist of the almost-midnight air. The realist in me, thus, lightens up a little. What is there to lose in a dream, anyway, but my inhibitions?

I think too much. I analyze too much. I am too much. Life, many times, is much simplier than we make it out to be. I need to learn how to relax all the time. You know...learn how to live? What. a. concept.

I finished Pride & Prejudice (much to Michelle's pleasure, she gets her book back!). I will say this about the book: it awakened my heart just a little. What beautiful sentences. An example, when Lizzy asks Darcy when he fell in love with her:

"I cannot fix on the hour, or the spot, or the look, or the words, which laid the foundation. It is too long ago. I was in the middle before I knew I had begun."

And people wonder why women salivate over this book.

It's not that I want a guy to necessarily say something like that to me (unless he's a great writer); rather, I want a guy to one day feel that for me. It matters not if he can express what he feels, than if he can show how he feels.

I don't worry about sounding cheesy here, or too much like a Disney movie. Because really, I think deep down inside, it's what everyone wants to feel. And you know I'm right.

Groovy

So I put up a picture of me "trying" to dance...basically because it cracks me up. I'm a dancing dancing dancing machine!

I change my picture way too much. I'm too indecisive in life, basically.

Oh well. The fact that I'm 21 remains my excuse for a lot of things. But what happens when I turn 30? Then my excuse will no longer work. Such is life.

Feel that burn? Yeah!

Yeah! I went to gym again today and ran on the treadmill, which by the way, I liked A LOT better than the freakin' Stairmaster. I feel more awake and energized from the treadmill. So my plan? Go to the gym every monday, wednesday and friday. We'll see how that pans out, but I think I can do it (I think I can, I think I can, I think I can...)

Goals for today:

*Finish Pride & Prejudice. It's about freakin' time.
*Make a craft for my sorority.
*Go to class--yeah, yeah...whatever.
*Go to Michelle's birthday dinner!! Woooohoooo turning 21! Heck yes!

Pretty good day, I must say. Hey, that rhymes...

My head is going to explode!

hahahaha....this picture just really cracks me up...I love it! But it has NOTHING to do with my post.

My post is about Carlos (sweater guy)...who I ran into today. He smiled and gave me a hug...and stupid me who couldn't speak was overcome with giddy joy by the fact that he had his arms around me.

I am SUCH a dork. I'm simply not one of those girls who can play it cool around guys they like. I'm that dorky girl, that blushes when I see that certain guy.

Ohhhhhhhh, and he looked so very beautiful when I saw him.

God! I'm gushing and I need to stop it. And I still get to see him tonight, which kind of makes my day. Ok--it really makes my day. So hopefully I'll get to talk to him tonight.

I've said it before and I'll say it again...damn those sexy latin boys who make my heart race and cloud my mind with nothing but thoughts of them!!!!

***and an update...I went to the fundraiser and got to talk to him for longer than I thought, yay! And I'm going to see him on Wednesday for coffee. Yeah, I'm definitely gushing now, and I DON'T CARE, bitches. He's quite lovely, I must say, and I am excited. :)

Totally.

So, I totally worked the Stairmaster today. You heard right. I'm a stairmaster gangsta. Got that Jack?

And I'm totally gonna see sweater guy tomorrow. Freakin' cute latino boys!!! *shakes fist in air* Why must you be so beautiful??? But I don't how much I'll see of him, really. he's holding a fundraiser, I'm going to it. I'll probably only get to talk to him for 5 minutes. But whatever, that's 5 minutes of sexy latino bliss.

And dude...I TOTALLY started my essay today. A DAY EARLY. What the hell? Where's the procrastinator in me? And it's pretty good so far. Yeah...I can roll with Thomas Hobbes, it wasn't as hard as I thought.

So...that was my day, totally.

I deserve a pat on the back, basically.

I feel like I've accomplished a few things today, which is a good feeling. Things I've done today:

• Signed up to be on a Street Team for People Magazine. This seems like it could be a good opportunity since not only am I interested in journalism, but I'm also interested in public relations. So it's pretty cool they were looking for representatives.
• Signed up for the gym. Hahaha...this makes me laugh because I work out, well, never. So i figure it's a good thing to stay in shape and be healthy. Possibly healthier than my chocolate addiction? Yeah. I won't give up the chocolate...they'll just even out.
• Worked on a picture frame for a new member in my sorority...I'm her GA. Maybe I'll explain this concept later. I'm just glad I started this project, cause I definitely have a TON of stuff this week to do, so it's good to get the little things out of the way.

So yeah. I've done all those things. But have I started my essay. Uh............that's a big no. I know, I know!!! I'm slapping my own wrist right now!!!

I'll get on that whole essay thing sometime...

Concentration is the Game

What do you do when you're stuck in spring break mode, yet you are thrusted abruptly into school?

I cannot, for the life of me, focus on writing my essay!!!!! It's due Thursday, which isn't helping, since the little devil/procrastinator in me is asking why I'm even starting it now. And it's on Thomas Hobbes--not my favorite theorist (seeing as he was REALLY into totalitarianism).

Concentration is impossible right now!!!

I am much too frustrated to start any school work. Is frustrated really the word? Maybe lazy is a better fit. Maybe it's a little of both.

Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr....I need to take a bath and relax...and dream of latin boys. Ahhh...what happy thoughts.

Back in the Daily Grind

Today marks the day that classes begin again. I miss spring break already. I've never been that girl that needs to take a trip to Cancun and flash the camera to have a good spring break...nah. I had a good break without going anywhere amazing.

But this week--man. It's gonna hit me like a ton of bricks. Essays, initiation this weekend, events every night--which isn't necessarily a bad thing. I'm just not gonna have any free time. And that sucks a little.

Oh well.

"Working in the coal mine
Going down down down
Working in the coal mine
Whoop I wanna sit down"

So I'm not working in a coal mine, but the song still fits.

Let's hope this week isn't something less than wonderful...I can turn that coal mine into a beautiful palace with a wave of my hand.