Ok....so today I feel a little better. My emotions last night were just, well crazy. What I have to remember is, my uncle was ready to go. He was in pain...it was his time, ultimately. Although, 52 is WAY to young.
But he finally has peace. The last 40 days of his life he was in the hospital with a tube stuck down his throat. And my uncle was a REALLY talkative guy...the guy who ALWAYS had to tell jokes, and he was damn good at it. So not being able to talk must have been killing him. So, it was time.
Death is Soooooo hard to comprehend...so I'm not going to think about so much right now. I just have to accept it.
But just to give you an idea, my uncle was the type of guy you wanted to be around. He had that spark that just lit up a room...his personality was completely contagious, like a brush fire. And all the places his good humor and love spread over will never be forgotten. He just made you feel good. And that's what I will miss the most. Just the presence of the man.
You finally get to rest in peace, Uncle Paul. You were the coolest uncle...and I will miss you dearly.
Thats very sweet Ash, I'm sure he is in a better place. You'll be in my thoughts...
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ReplyDeleteI came across your blog through Vicarious Living. I'm really sorry to hear about your lost. And I know what I'm about to say may sound a bit lame...but it really does gets easier with time. A very close friend of mine passed away several months ago, but there are moments when I feel as if she's by my side. Your uncle will always be with you; and he'll always be watching. Just think back to the times you two spent together. Know that he's in a better place now; and live your life that would make him proud. I'm also sure he wouldn't have wanted you to mourn. Take care and keep us posted on how you're doing.
not to sound trite, and I hope it would go without saying that I'm sorry to hear about your uncle, but "contagious like a brush fire" is a kickass line.
ReplyDeleteHey, Ashley, I am so sorry to read the news. Your cousin is lucky to have you right now. Trust that in time, you will be able to enjoy telling the fun stories about your uncle without the tears and sadness... Hang in there....
ReplyDeletethanks everyone...it's always nice to have support.
ReplyDeleteThanks matt for the compliment on the brush fire line, haha.